Guess Who’s Back, Back Again…

Long time no see, my friends. I took a bit of a (longer than expected) hiatus from writing this summer. Despite all of the adventures I’ve had over the past three months, I’ve had an intense case of writers block, and have been unable properly articulate all of the amazing experiences I’ve had. But as…

Healing Is Not Linear

 About a week ago, this picture was shared by a Facebook friend of mine. Since then, I’ve been thinking a lot about it. The process of healing is just that, a process. Healing doesn’t happen all at once, and it’s not going to “just keep getting better”. Healing isn’t something that gets better everyday, it’s…

When it Actually Starts Getting Better

People always say “Just hold on, it gets better. Keep fighting, it really does get better”. Hearing that for more then 3 years gets pretty damn exhausting, so you completely disregard and refuse to believe the statement “It gets better”.  Until it actually starts to happen. When you’ve only cried once in the last two…

Transparency

This past weekend, I was out with a group of friends. I was talking with one of them about something oddly deep for being at a party. I can’t remember what it was about, but I laughed and said “I can’t believe you just said that, my therapist and I were talking about this exact…

A Moment of Weakness

I’ve been feeling really good lately, but today I just can’t. I’m exhausted from putting up this front all the time that I’m fine. I’m tired of being positive, and compassionate, and looking at life from the ‘glass half full’ perspective.I know that sounds disgusting, that I’m tired of being a good and happy person….

2 Years Later

2 years ago today, I was released from New Ulm Medical Center. A week after nearly killing myself, I was let out of the most depressing hospital in the world. That title is dubbed by my family and I. Imagine the stereotypical abandoned psych ward. They let me out and I was wearing rust colored scrubs,…

Thank You Note

Compassionate God, thank you for putting people in my life to help remind me of the great things you do for me. Help me to look for and hold onto these things, especially when I’m struggling. Amen. (from D365, a Daily Devotional App.) This was the prayer from my devotion today, and it resonated so deeply…

On Being “Over-Emotional”

“If I’m not between a 3 and 7 on the emotional scale, I’m crying.” -Kristen Bell about her sloth-induced meltdown. (Click the link and watch, it’s effing hilarious). For as long I can remember, I’ve been told by my mother that “I’m just sensitive”. I can actually cry over spilt milk (15 years old, I dropped…

Starting From the Bottom…

A little less then two months ago, I went through a series of epiphanies (is that the correct plural for ‘epiphany‘? I’m going with it). The biggest of which was me realizing that for the past three years, I have never been fully present in my own life. The majority of decisions I’ve made in the past three…